ive waited too many years waiting in the shadows of your relationships.
ive invested too much of my time hoping you’ll finally want to be with me.
ive spent too many nights wanting to hear ‘hey why dont we give us a try…”
you’ve acted like you didnt care for me and were over me and when im convinced and try to move on you toss me aside?
im so confused.if you had feelings why not express them?
i guess the answer is irrelevant now though.
anyway….all social media is cut off.
i’m moving the fuck on.
i’m sorry for nothing besides not meeting your standards or anyone else’s for that matter.
stalk my tumblr,stalk my facebook,stalk my IG i dont care anyomre.
you won’t see updates of my life because frankly i dont think you want to be apart of it.
fuck all this bullshit surrounding me and people making me feel i need their validation.
guys have used me to make EXs jealous.never took me seriously.just viewed me as a “back burner girl”
my girlfriends used me to talk shit about their other “real-deal” life friends and act like their superior to me.
when i confide my serious problems and ask for support with a simple shoulder to lean on…..it’s ALWAYS an inconvenience and bother.just brush off the topic and bring their problems back up… im fucking tired of it.
so to answer your nosy questions…
YES i did fall for a guy i shouldn’t have.acutally i have only truly fell head over hills fell for 2 guys in my life time.one was my first boyfriend 4 years ago and the boy who helped me get over it and watched me cry through it all….the one i should’ve picked,hell i think i still have the strongest feelings for him….but was a stupid little girl back then.
YES i used to have best friends but no longer do.men seem to come between us too often.fuck weak minded girls.or better yet selfish ones.my life is not your morning gossip over coffee.
YES i do plan on moving soon.just time will tell.
NO i will not talk to anyone because you’re now ready to give me your left over time.
i’ve loved and i’ve lost.
i’m no longer going to be the stepping stone to recovery for people.
no more effort will be put into mending friendships or fighting for a guy who looks at me as a piece of ass.
im sorry but only for myself though.i’m going to struggling immensely with missing all of you who used to mean the world to me.
i’m forcing myself to realize when to cut my losses and give up on trying.
all number have been deleted.all profiles inactive.
i love you all so fucking much.ive tried proving this time and time again.
i give up on everything.
but i need to start loving me more.